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we bleed just to know we're alive.

this week has been rough.  my blog will prove so. (and thank you philosophy class)

so about this life.  yeah, it's obviously "hard".  what "hard" entails, i really don't know.  there aren't really specifics.  i guess it's a nice way to say that everyone feels pain.  and it's also obvious that everyone struggles.  one's struggle is not harder than the other's.  everyone that struggles feels the same way - pain.  

but how necessary is this pain? what does it prove? that we're real?

i would have to believe that some struggling is necessary.  like struggling to get a good grade in school or to get a higher job position or to become better at a skill or hobby.  yes, these are all things worth while to struggle for because it builds character.  it makes you work for something.  in this case, there is a positive outcome to struggling.

but, the struggling i'm referring to is the unnecessary curve balls that life throws at you.  the uncontrollable curve balls that hit you hard.  is famine, poverty, sickness, unavoidable loneliness, and death necessary? maybe.  maybe it tries to show as how valuable life really is.  but, i feel as though the effects of these things are a waste of time.  it is hard to overcome these feats without being sad or depressed.  and, it is hard to value life when sad.  so when these "life-is-fleeting" lessons hit us, we're too sad to appreciate life.  you can do all the activities you want, but it is very hard to see all the goodness when blinded by sadness.

i don't know.  maybe i'm just sad and i don't like it.  but in order for my theory to work, we'd have to make humanity inhumane.  eliminate emotions.  eliminate all human connections. but, without emotions, what is humanity? as the goo goo dolls say, we bleed just to know we're alive. but that's it?  we just suffer to know happiness? because happiness is harder to achieve?

advice

this is just a little life lesson i've learned recently:
when in doubt, love yourself.

Day 30- Who are you?

who am i?
i'm josette rocco.   i'm a sophomore and 19 years old.  i'm from brooklyn, new york city.  i know what i want, where i want to be, and where i want to go.  i love school and education and experience.  i enjoy everything because life's too short to not enjoy.  i struggle, but so does everyone else, but one day, i know i'll move past it.

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?

i'm a whirlwind right now so it's hard for me to pinpoint anything about myself, but if i've learned anything it's that people are going to disappoint you.  you can't expect much from them because they don't expect much from themselves.  but so what if i demand someone be the best they can be? is that such a bad thing? is it bad to demand so much from someone else? demand that they treat you right?

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

last year during ualbany's girltalk concert

-pretty blissful-

i haven't changed in the past year, just grown into myself.  i'm still the same person, just completely comfortable with myself.  i've become more verbal about my feelings and opinions in the past year.  i've always been confident, but now i am confident in my beliefs and feelings.  i know what i want and i don't care what others think.  i'm not scared of much anymore.  i've learned not to rely on anyone, due to just having to be on my own at school and other personal experiences i've had to deal with.  this doesn't mean i've pushed people away because i've actually pulled them closer.

i've also been looking more at the future than dwelling on the past because even though the past has given me amazing memories, it hasn't always brought some of the best feelings..

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

i don't know why i'm doing this.  i guess to get more into blogging.  bored.  no specific reason.  maybe just like to think about some qualities about myself to remember parts of me.

Day 26- What you think about your friends

this is easy.  i think they are the most wonderful, beautiful, loyal, trustworthy people in the world.  if not, i wouldn't be their friends, right?  i really can't say enough good things about them.  they are always there for me and when i need help from them, they give me more than i need.  i wish everyone in the world was like them... it would never get boring

Day 25- What I would find in your bag

stuff that i always carry with me:
- lip gloss/chapstick 
- gum
- phone (sometimes)
- money
- ipod
- license
- probably my kindle
- metro card
- hand sanitizer lol


balla

Day 24- A letter to your parents

i'm not writing this entry.

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot

i crave to go on vacation. to get on a plane and go somewhere warm.  a different country.  an exotic country with charm.

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

this one is kind of difficult.  i know i'm different from most of the population, but it's hard pinpointing a few things that make me very different so, forgive me if this doesn't make sense.


firstly, it's my morals that make me different.  i'm generally just a very moral person and i care about people.  i believe in upholding my self-respect, even though it is hard to resist temptations.  sometimes i regret things i haven't done, but i feel stronger in the end.


i believe in and see things beyond the surface.  i see things people don't usually see (or don't want to see).  i believe that there is beauty in expression.  i don't have time to wait around for someone to feel.  expression shows me that you're alive.


i have great intuition and judgement, which i think comes with me seeing things beyond the surface.  i read people really well.  too well actually .. almost to the point where i can read their minds.  i know i sound crazy, but i have too much experience to know that i'm never wrong.  i'm also really in tune with my emotions and my thoughts.