Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

you've never hurt me before now.  and now, everyday, is painful..a pain deep in my lungs.  my lungs have caved in and collapsed and i can't breathe, i can't walk, i can't see.  i know you see my pain, but you refuse to believe it because you know it's because of your own selfishness.  you've changed, or just reemerged.  no one knows why or how.  it hurts me that you think everything is okay.  you pretend like you're not hurting, but whatever you're feeling, has turned into hatred.  you're being stretched too thin, and i'm dreading the day you snap. 

i haven't gotten over the pain, i've just become numb to it.  nothing you do surprises me anymore - i'm numb to the falsehood, the idiocy, the inconsideration, the craziness.  i'm losing you, but you're also losing me.  i know wishing things were back to normal is useless and also impossible, but i'd just like for you to be the person you used to be because i'm not sure of the person you are now.  i'm not willing to accept the person you are now, and not many people will either.

i don't want you to be alone, for i know loneliness has a tendency to take you over.  i've tried to be understanding but it's difficult to understand selfishness and foolishness and i'm running out of patience.

i hope you and i can both snap out of this bad dream soon, otherwise, i'll be gone.

i'm reaping what you've sown.